1. guilt
1.1. She feels ashamed of what she did
1.1.1. "sometimes when your a child you don't feel guilt until you grow up"
1.2. when you start growing up you start to feel guilt
1.2.1. "yet there are still times when the image of those passionate yellow mundanes return painful poignancy
2. ashamed
2.1. that she feels ashamed now that she is a women
2.1.1. "the child in me said it was all fun but the women in me finched all the thought of the malicious attack that i had led"
2.2. that when she broke MIss,lotties marigolds she felt ashamed of what she did
2.2.1. "The witch was no longer a witch but only a broken old woman who had dared to create beauty in the midst of ugliness and sterility. She had been born in squalor and lived in it all her life
3. troubled
3.1. she broke Miss.Lottie
3.1.1. "the idea caught an once, for annoying Miss lotties was always fun". "We children made a game how to disturb John Burke"
3.2. they like to annoy there elders
3.2.1. The witch was no longer a witch but only a broken old woman who had dared to create beauty in the midst of ugliness and sterility.
4. growing up
4.1. the believes by growing up you get more mature
4.1.1. "i scrambled to my feet and just stood there and stared at her and thats was the moment when childhood faded and womanhood began"
4.2. the author believes that growing up is important
4.2.1. "that violent crazy act was the last act of my childhood"