Don’t know what I’m feeling?

1. Love

1.1. That my family is healthy

1.1.1. Can influence not control

1.2. Relationship between me and shane

1.2.1. Influence from both sides

1.3. For all the support i have in my life

1.3.1. Influence

1.4. My family

1.4.1. Can influence not control

2. Disappointment

2.1. For being unproductive

2.1.1. In my control

2.2. Being mean to shane when he doesn’t deserve it

2.2.1. In my control

2.3. Not having more patience with raiden

2.3.1. In my control but influence by raiden

3. Guilt

3.1. For being tired

3.1.1. Influence by me

3.2. Not thinking before I do something

3.2.1. In my control

3.3. Being oblivious at times

3.3.1. In my control

3.4. Not being in the moment

3.4.1. In my control

3.5. Being sharp

3.5.1. In my control

3.6. Feeling like the bad guy

3.6.1. In my control

3.7. Crying

3.7.1. In my control

3.8. Asking for help or getting things and anything to do with money

3.8.1. In my control

4. Frustration

4.1. Cause I can’t understand what I’m feeling

4.1.1. In my control

4.2. Not having enough energy to play with raiden or do stuff around the house

4.2.1. In my control

5. Fear

5.1. Don’t want him to hate me

5.1.1. Not in my control

5.2. Shane dying or leaving not by choice

5.2.1. Not in my control

5.3. Don’t want to feel like a burden on the people that love me

5.3.1. In my control