1. Fears
1.1. Gaining Weight
1.1.1. Not liking the way I look
1.1.1.1. Fear of being judged on appearance.
1.1.1.1.1. Fear of not being good enough because of weight/not being accepted by others.
1.1.2. Not being in control of ones fate
1.1.2.1. Feeling powerless to affect real change.
1.2. Money
1.2.1. having to buy 3 new pairs of jeans
1.2.1.1. Clothes not fitting
1.2.1.1.1. frustration of constantly outgrowing clothes
1.2.2. buying new clothes every couple of months
2. Dreams
2.1. Look good in clothes
2.1.1. Wear a swimsuit without worry
2.1.1.1. Not worry about what other people are thinking
2.1.2. Get dressed without having to struggle
2.1.2.1. No mental battle
2.1.2.1.1. Freedom of time
2.1.2.1.2. Freedom of confidence
2.2. Reclaim mental peace.
2.2.1. Getting dressed easy quick and easy
2.2.1.1. Feeling confident when walking out the door.
3. Common Phrases
3.1. "Who has time to meal prep."
3.2. “There are times in my life when I feel like I’m doing great...things are good, but then the minute I have some stressors at school schedule wise or with the administration……”
3.2.1. "I was doing good and then I had some stress come in my life..."
3.3. “I think it’s a way of self-medicated. Most women turn to food as a comfort thing.”
3.3.1. going home and treating that stress or numbing that stress through eating
3.4. After 50 hours at work surrounded by students and other tired adults, I just wanted to go home, watch Friends, and eat. So I did.
4. "I struggle with emotional eating."
5. I think emotional eating is a way of self-medicating.
6. The more stressed or tired I am, my resistance goes down.
6.1. but then I had some major stress come in my life and I went right back to emotional eating.
6.1.1. -“There are times in my life when I feel like I’m doing great...things are good, but then the minute -I have some stressors at school schedule wise or with the administration……”
6.1.1.1. -I'm tired, anxious about school starting, and my usual trained thought process went out the window.
6.1.1.1.1. you can’t make rational decisions when you’re that tired.
7. I had outgrown my third pair of jeans.
7.1. After I couldn't fit in my work slacks I knew I had to make some changes.
7.1.1. “It hit me when I couldn’t fit into these corduroy pants I had recently bought.
8. Obstacles
8.1. Envrionment
8.1.1. Lack of Control of Surroundings.
8.1.1.1. Lack of Control of Self in Surroundings
8.1.1.1.1. Feeling Helpless.
8.2. Schedule
8.2.1. Very Complex (Varying grade levels back to back)
8.2.1.1. ]
8.2.2. Disruption of Schedule (holiday concerts/rehearsals/affecting the rest of school=stressors)
8.2.2.1. Stress of disruption.
8.2.2.1.1. Overwhelm.
8.2.3. Time
8.2.3.1. Perceptions that it takes "too much time" to be healthy.
8.2.3.1.1. Priorities.
9. -“You have to be very mindful about prepping yourself mentally...like I know there’s going to be cookie cake in the workroom.. . some type of sugary junk in the workroom.”
9.1. -the teacher workroom was filled with baked goods. I didn’t want one, but I ate one.
9.1.1. -Donuts in the break room at school
9.1.1.1. I gained weight in my first year....I blamed all those PTA donuts and birthday cupcakes on a regular basis! It's very hard.
10. I use up everything I have at school and I’m a mess when I get home. Too tired to cook or even care about what I am eating. I know I need to lose weight because I feel and look so unhealthy, but i feel hopeless about it.
10.1. We give everything to our kids and we get "the dregs" (the remainder)
11. Pains
11.1. Shcedule
11.1.1. Time
11.1.1.1. Not enough time
11.1.1.1.1. Hectic and long days
11.1.1.2. Time wasted on tasks unrelated to music
11.1.1.3. "Who has the time" (to prepare healthy foods/meal prep)
11.1.2. Administrators
11.1.2.1. unfair expectations
11.1.3. Teaching schedule
11.1.3.1. Planning for multiple grade leves
11.1.3.1.1. transitions between classes
11.1.3.1.2. reaching all the different types of learners
11.1.3.1.3. "Reel in your mind to adjust for the next group."
11.1.3.1.4. Everything from Orchestra, to band, to general music.
11.1.3.2. Many arrive on campus before 7 and receive there first students shortly after.
12. Hopes
12.1. Note to self: I need to adjust my questions to get more hopes.
13. "Its hard to find balance."
13.1. -“It’s hard to find balance....it’s a really tricky thing. I’ve been teaching 24 years and I’m still struggling with figuring that out.”
14. "I have no concept of where full is."
15. I think most women turn to food for comfort.
16. Stress
16.1. Food is comfort
17. Fear of Gaining Weight
18. “It takes so much time to make food that’s healthy for you.”
18.1. -I just don’t have time to sit and make a weeks worth of meals in a day and portion everything out into ziplock baggies an just don’t have time for that.
18.1.1. -My schedule is way too busy…12 hr. days
18.1.1.1. - And it takes time to prep. It takes more time to make a dinner that’s healthy with vegetables to chop and onions to chop . . .
19. My schedule is way too busy…12 hr. days
19.1. Yep...I teach full time (start before school with band) and I have a 20 hr./week second job. Man I eat like sh*t and have gained quite a bit
19.1.1. After 50 hours at work surrounded by students and other tired adults, I just wanted to go home, watch Friends, and eat. So I did.
19.1.1.1. Yep...I teach full time (start before school with band) and I have a 20 hr./week second job. Man I eat like sh*t and have gained quite a bit